So Sad:A Very Touching Poem "Inner Monster"

Everyone has a monster inside of him/her,monsters of different characters and attitude.Mine feeds daily on my loneliness,its fed so much and grown so big yet being trapped inside a body not willing to let it out.It strives daily to be let loose,to be unleashed into the world.I just give it a pat on the head and rub its hairy back to calm it down and i say "Calm down monster,you will have your fair share of the world but your time isn't here yet".  Just as a master tries to tame a new dog,so do i try to tame my monster but like a dog who has tasted blood,am afraid its going to unleash sooner than expected.

    Just as every creature has a weak spot,so does my monster have a weak spot,something i call a default.Its a big and scary monster with a chicken heart,a feeble heart which makes it a disadvantage but like a burning bush withers away,its just a matter of time and the right ignition before it withers away into dust.                     Not until then will this monster defile its masters warning and be unleashed.This sis the part of me i want to keep a secret but nothing is a secret for long.                                                                                                 Am quite scared of my inner monster because its getting stronger than its owner.Am afraid its going to consume me,make me unrecognizable,heartless and stone-cold.                                                                 Just like a dictator drunk in power,am afraid of what i will become.